Diary

感觉最近浑浑噩噩的，学习学不进去，运动动不起来，一定是前一段失恋导致的……吗？我母鸡哎。

anyway，我决定来这里拉一坨，希望下次我再回来看的时候会觉得自己是个傻逼 .

Lack of motivation

Forgetting is betrayal

Now I couldn’t keep pushing myself to learn ,I’m sure I didn’t learn these things for money in the first place,But for what ? I can’t answer it

I have long forgotten why I began to strive for progress,Learning English or VFX or Management or anyothers is to go out into the world and earn dollars to make my family richer,i tell me this over and over.

It’s not easy being away from home.And now it seems that even if I do not go abroad, I can live in local peace of mind, the Internet is enough to let me contact the outside world, with the deepening of the sense of foreign insights, foreign countries are obviously not as good as domestic life.

I can’t find the joy I had when I was gaining knowledge,I don’t know what to do next.There are so many things I need to do.But why i don’t have motivation?

I must have forgotten something important things, something important reason, something that needs me to move on. I have betrayed myself.

About love

I met a girl, actually, we’ve known each other for a long time in junior high school,I admit that I was a stupid pig when I was a student. that girl threw olive branches to me countless times and I was fooled by my stupidness.A year ago I decided to get to know her and talk to her,Caring, gifting, calling, like most couples do.But apart from seeing each other,I’m confused. I’ve been brushed off countless invitations,Even when she accepted the invitation, she always evaded it.My gus told me about many possible reasons,but actually I don’t care about the cause, I just look at the action and the result.Apparently, she doesn’t like me.So I cut off contact,but it’s weird that she keeps reaching out to me.I can never read a girl’s mind.

当断不断，必受其乱

When a person can control your emotions, you should immediately disconnect from the practice, because I will become no longer me

CUT OFF , Reason and experience tell me I must do it .

Now

My life had been stagnant for three months, during which I felt no progress, no hope for the future.I must think back to what I once desired, perhaps because I had lived too comfortably and had no sense of crisis

生于忧患,死于安乐

I’m DYING slowly

Other

I decided to add the comments and photo gallery feature to the site in a few days,If I have the motivation to do it………………..

If I finish it , come on ,shout shit on me !